I was going through some photos this morning and thinking about all those things that a person thinks about at this time of the year. There are still a few parties left to go to before the end of the month and a couple of presents to open but then the year and the decade will finally be over.
I always have the random lyrics to a few old songs rattling around in my head, half-forgotten. The ones that came to mind today were from Jackson Browne,
“And while the future’s there for anyone to change, still you know it’s seems
It would be easier sometimes to change the past…“
Some people are frightened by what is behind them, fearing that the past might catch up with them while others fear what lies ahead waiting in the dark. I’m not sure which is worse but both are pretty scary. I’m no good at telling fortunes or making fortunes. I don’t even have a reasonable explanation for things that happened last week and maybe that is due in part to having a cold this week and not really feeling like I am living in the present moment. I don’t have any serious problems of my own to worry about so I’ve been worrying about the things I hear on the radio instead. I wonder if we will ever get things right on this planet before we completely ruin the whole thing. Parts of the world seem stuck in the dark ages.
The few people who seem to care enough to do something about the problems of the world seem to get pushed back on every front. Peacekeepers and relief workers are slaughtered along with the rest of the ravaged population. There is a lot of evil in this world and once in a while there are moments of incredible beauty that seem surreal. How can the two things exist at once? If I keep thinking about it long enough I’m sure I will drive myself insane.
Is there anyone out there who still feels like we can change the world? The future is there waiting for change but who will change it? I’m still trying to figure out how it all works. Tomorrow or the next day when my body has battled back against the cold virus, I will be more positive and optomistic. I will try to do better and be kind to people. I will try to keep on smiling.